The Newness

Well today I have made a new friend that just might be what I have been lookin for.  He is a genuinely good dude that seemed surprised that I understood that fact that he just got off work and did not want to talk on the phone.  Told him that I know wat its like to be @ work all day and then wanna go home to have a lil bit of silence.  So we will talk tomorrow and if things look on the up and up we might hang out this weekend.  Pray for me all cuz I need a lil happiness in my life and if we only get to be friends and nothing more, that sounds like it will be a good fit too.  So.................

Deliverance

let me be the first to admit that when you're alone things do tend to suck a little. HOWEVER when you have peace of mind and accept the fact that what you held onto, you used as a crutch because you twisted up in the (stupid) belief that you didn't know who you were. at 27, i now realize that i didn't get to be me for 7 years and that scares me. but i'm determined to start fresh with someone new that can look at me and say "i can help make a better you."  im tired of being alone but i can't get enough of the fact that i get up every day only having to worry about my attitude and temper.  bliss.

Movement

I made a consious decision that I was going to start to make sure that i have an outlet for all the psycho babble bullshit that tends to build up in my mind.  I have made some horrible choices in my life when it comes to the men that I have allowed t have access to me and my kids.  But despite all of the drama one thing that I REFUSE to let go down is that I become a victim.